You ever feel blank. Blank like that the white wall you stare at after a long day and no one else is around. It’s 3 a.m. Now is the time when life talks back to you. Your mind gives you the answers; or it could drive you crazy with more questions. Reflections. But I’m careful, because I know my mind creates the sweet fruit that I enjoy eating; that I crave. And I know my mind can also create the poisons that try to kill my dreams, my soul, my inspiration. Continue reading ‘Thoughts. Those Wonderful Thoughts’
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So are we still associating being articulate with being white these days? This mess must end here!
That’s what I assumed when a guy I met this past weekend said to me “You got a little bit of Caucasian in you.” Now I just jumped to the meat without giving you the seasoning, so let me get down to it.
Continue reading ‘Epic Fail-”You Got A Little Bit Of Caucasion in You?”’
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35 – At this age I hope to be settled. We all imagine the husband, big house and two kids, greenery in the front lawn, backyard, car, maybe a dog or a cat, the perfect neighbors…I can go on and on. However I’m only 21. I’m close to getting my wonderful ticket to the world with the great institution of Howard stamping me with approval. I’ve had a great deal of pre-career experience and according to my parents and mentors I’m well on my golden path to wherever my career will lead me as a writer and communicator. To think of a family or a husband right now-well it wouldn’t make sense.
I’m too selfish right now. Not selfish in a way where I wouldn’t want to share some warm chocolate chip cookies with you if I had some (Well maybe I may think twice), because I do believe in sharing happiness. Or if I had information that may help a friend I’d pass it on. I would never mind stopping to help a complete stranger with directions even if I was in a rush. I’m not selfish in that way.
What I mean by being selfish is that I really need to work on myself. I can barely roll out the bed for my own good to make it work or my internship or class. Imagine adding on a husband or a house to tend. Then adding on a kid. AH! I don’t even think so. I’m not ready for that responsibility. Going on and on I don’t even want a big house with a front lawn. lol! Some people laugh at me when I tell them I want to buy two brownstones that are next door to each other and make them into one big house. Yes that is my dream. You may laugh or ponder, but I’m such a city girl. And of course it won’t make sense to anyone other than me. Moreover I’m allergic to cats and I guess I would not mind a dog. Also forget a car right now- I don’t even have my license but I’m working on that (Yes I can drive at least).
The whole purpose of me writing this is to really put into perspective who I am as of the present in relation to what I want in the future. I may want the whole world, but what I do now affects me having that eventually. I like to think ahead – not to stress myself out or worry, but to at least know what I want in my future.
I also keep in mind that no matter how much I plan and how precise I think I have this future thing planned out, things will not always hit the mark. One must be open to the flexible, topsy-turvy roads of the future.
Plan but don’t get mad if it doesn’t always work the way YOU think it should. Life will ALWAYS happen the way it should.
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5 Lessons Life Has Shown Me
IM BACK. I know I have not updated recently. Sorry to those who have been checking. Anyway Summer 2010 is on deck and I am excited for all the people and places that I will meet. Continue reading ‘5 Lessons Life Has Shown Me’
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Spring Break is Over (Sigh)
Spring Break is over. Those four words roll off my tongue harshly only because I enjoyed the break so much. Miami was so beautiful. Nothing lasts forever, but I will return again. Enjoy these photos. This is only a bit of what happened, but I can’t reveal everything 
. Continue reading ‘Spring Break is Over (Sigh)’
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Breaking Free
This month I’m truly breaking free. Traveling always excites me. The thought of getting away from the norm is a guaranteed adrenaline rush. Sometimes I feel like I’m all over the place; like I have no order to my life. I constantly have to stay organized. There are times where I fall off and I lose steam. Times like now. I came back to school this semester so hard. Continue reading ‘Breaking Free’
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For the past month or so, I have anxiously awaited a response from a highly respected magazine organization about my application status for their summer internship program. I received the email, opened it, and boom I was rejected. “We appreciate your…but we can’t accept everyone…good luck in your endeavors!” They usually go something like that. Anyway my heart dropped for a quick second. I’m not going to lie I felt slightly disappointed. Continue reading ‘Missing Doesn’t Always Mean Losing’
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These Thoughts Grip Me…
I’m thinking about life and it’s purpose at the wee hours of the morning, when these thoughts usually run through my mind. They love to visit me and party in my head. Ideas, epiphanies, revelations bouncing off the walls of my brain. The world, society, humanity. Love, hate, pain. Why do these things come so late? Why is the night the stomping ground for all things beyond reality? The dreams follow me. They like me. They chose me. Even if I don’t want them there. A knock at my door, I let one in, and the dream just brings along more friends to party in my brain. A never-ending jam. They don’t know when to stop. Then somehow they suck me in, even when I want to resist. Jumbled dreams, thoughts, ideas. No room to breathe. Yet it still goes on. The world is a thought away from change. Actions connect the two. If my thoughts get a tight enough grip on my arm, they will lead me to the door of action. Continue reading ‘These Thoughts Grip Me…’
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Hello March…
March is here and I welcome her with open arms. This is the beginning of warmer weather. Aren’t you excited!? I am. I live for this. This is a season of travel, of new relationships, and the strengthening of old ones. Spring is where I get allergies unfortunately 
. But it’s also the season of my birthday. Spring is where I will see all the hard work from the winter come to life. Either way, as long as I don’t see anymore of the cold white flakes come out the sky, I’m straight. This will be a great month. Lets get it!
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